So, where do I start...
Back in September of 2005, Clay and I decided that we wanted a little one in our lives... we started trying to conceive in that month... we were certain that we would succeed on the first try... we were both after all very healthy... we tried to eat a proper diet, exercised fairly regularly, never smoked cigarettes, kept alcohol consumption to a very nominal amount and didn't partake in any recreational drugs... we were healthy...
Needless to say, we didn't conceive that month, or the month after, or the month after that...
It was quite depressing at first, which was funny since we weren't even really quite sure if we were ready for that little bundle of joy... I always wanted to be a stay-at-home mommy and having a baby at that time would've meant that we would've had to work out some kind of "me working evenings" schedule... but I was willing to do it... the thought of a child excited me...
We tried for about six depressing months when I decided "you know what, I'm not going to let this get me down... it'll happen when it's supposed to happen..." so, I put it out of my mind as much as I could, and it really worked... I had a very fulfilling life as soon as I made that decision...
The following October (2006), I decided to go see a fertility specialist just to be sure that there was nothing major wrong... after some blood tests, sperm counts, etc., we discovered that there was nothing major wrong... whadya know? The specialist was eager to start me on chlomid that day, but Clay and I were very adament that we wanted to conceive naturally... I, personally, just can't see how it's a good thing to force a pregnancy on your body... make sense, right? Right...
It was really quite easy to put it out of my mind after those appointments... I felt confident that we would conceive when our bodies were ready...
So... life went on... I continued working my outragious (for the most part) job at Starbucks!! I really did love that job... and we did this and that, travelled, outdoor sports, etc., etc., etc... I even enrolled in film make-up school and started classes full-time in October 2007 and finished in February 2008... fun stuff (I am a film, tv, photo, bridal, whatever make-up artist btw)...
During this time, I did think about being pregnant now and then, but I was really busy and content and at peace with life... and Clay and I were totally cool with adoption if that was our option...
So, it wasn't until I finished school in February that I, for the first time in my whole life, sat home for a week without a job, without being in school and thought to myself "what am I going to do now?" Clay even asked me what I wanted to do... "stay home and have a baby" was my answer... I've always been one to get what I want... some say spoiled, I say blessed...
So... thus begins my journey... I hope you enjoy the ride with me!!
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